Thank you. I’m so very overwhelmed with all of this and I’m also only scratching the surface of how bad it all is; I can’t really find the ability to concentrate on all the details anymore. It’s just like endless waves of trauma washing over me and I’m so numb I don’t even notice. I cannot cry anymore, and I just try to make the best out of my days without getting into anything with him. It’s so hard to even review with my therapist because I shut out most of the details. Also I work two jobs, about 11 hours a weekday and 6-8 hours on weekends, and it just makes it hard to accomplish anything or fix anything or feel anything but trying to power through. I hope I can escape too.
In some countries (like Germany) they have special hotels which are essentially free or low-cost, which have the sole purpose of helping women or people in a difficult, abusive relationship gather some distance from their abusive partner. In German they’re called “Frauenhäuser” (women’s houses). Maybe such a thing exists where you live, too?
Thank you. I’m so very overwhelmed with all of this and I’m also only scratching the surface of how bad it all is; I can’t really find the ability to concentrate on all the details anymore. It’s just like endless waves of trauma washing over me and I’m so numb I don’t even notice. I cannot cry anymore, and I just try to make the best out of my days without getting into anything with him. It’s so hard to even review with my therapist because I shut out most of the details. Also I work two jobs, about 11 hours a weekday and 6-8 hours on weekends, and it just makes it hard to accomplish anything or fix anything or feel anything but trying to power through. I hope I can escape too.
May I suggest something?
In some countries (like Germany) they have special hotels which are essentially free or low-cost, which have the sole purpose of helping women or people in a difficult, abusive relationship gather some distance from their abusive partner. In German they’re called “Frauenhäuser” (women’s houses). Maybe such a thing exists where you live, too?
I understand, that sounds incredibly harrowing.
I’ll leave you with step one which is
Thats all you need to think about for now, just do that for me and keep your chin up best you can. Night 🤫 stay safe