• Endorkend
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    3529 months ago

    Every fracture, bruise and STABWOUND I’ve had as a 6ft1 230lbs dude, in my 45 years on this earth were caused by one 5ft2 woman.

    That 18 year relationship left me with serious PTSD, constant anxiety I’ll get a call she killed herself, constant anxiety she may seek contact again and severely aggravated my pre-existing dislike for any sort of physical contact.

    It took well over a year before I was able to even hug the woman that is now my wife.

    • @SatanicNotMessianic@lemmy.ml
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      1019 months ago

      Hey man, I’m really hoping you have been able to get someone to speak to about your situation as well as medication to help manage your symptoms. I did not take those options, and it has taken me years to recover.

      It sounds like you’re still carrying a lot of that weight, and I hope you can put it down.

    • billwashere
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      339 months ago

      We are taught from a very young age to not hit people smaller and weaker than us, even in self defense. And it happens a lot more than people realize.

    • @intensely_human@lemm.ee
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      19 months ago

      Have you tried any of the new MDMA-enhanced psychotherapy techniques for PTSD?

      Even when the waters have calmed down, and a person is functional again, the shit is still there. But the shit itself can be actually cleaned up, to make space for more of the good things.

      • Endorkend
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        19 months ago

        I’ve been looking into that here and so far it’s not accepted as valid (or legal to use MDMA) and while it looks promising, me being neurodivergent has my psychiatrist and psyhcologist a bit apprehensive to experiment with it.